Ang hirap maging Ina. As much as I can, I really TRY & DO MY BEST. I will climb the highest mountain, and cross the deepest sea. Hanggang kaya ng powers ko, I will not stop until I succeed.
However, tao lang ako. In as much as I want to, there is a higher Being, and a higher authority I must bow down to.
May kasabihan.. Ang buhay ay parang bato, it’s hard -source: Ina Montecillo We can’t have everything we want. Even if we think it’s what’s best, we never know what the future holds. We don’t have the answer, and we don’t hold the key.
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| Source: Bubba Gump |
These past few weeks I have felt like a failure as a mother because I can’t do this one thing for my child. I have cried, I have prayed, I have begged, I have gone over & beyond. But the answer is still a resounding NO from the higher ups.
I must admit, this is a very humbling experience. I’m used to getting my way. There have been many instances where I was able to push & make a way when there seemed to be no way. But this time, when & where it really mattered and counted the most, I failed. And I will forever regret this failure because I don’t want my child to think that mommy didn’t do her best.
Ultimately, this is God’s will. I am only your earthly parent, and I can only do so much. Our heavenly Father, who loves you most & encompasses all understanding, knows what’s best. He has decided. And we must obey. Know that this will only make you stronger for the path that is called LIFE
Know in your heart that I love you so very much. Your pain is my pain. Your burden is my burden. We will go through this together. You & me, forever. <3
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| I plan to give you love, nurturing, and just enough dysfunction to make you funny. Life is hard enough for us to be too serious. |
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| How blessed am I to have such an amazing, wonderful child! <3 You have not let me down my baby. Mommy loves you so very much!!! And I’m so proud of the kind of person that you have become. No mom could ever ask for more!!! :-* |
16 Comments
Wow naman Ms. Jane! Kung ako isa sa mga anak mo at nabasa ko ito, yayakapin kita ng mahigpit at lulunurin kita ng aking mga halik..
June 14, 2013 at 1:07 amAaawww… Smetimes things are not meant to be. No matter how Mommy (and/or daddy) says yes, if The Lord says No – hindi talaga.Then again, maybe the answ was Not Yet. Have faith, little one. God takes away things so He may give you new ones. Or He may deny what you desire so He can give you what you truly deserve. After all, how can He give you treasure if both hands are already full?Jane, I am sure you did what was humanly possible. Your children love you and I'm sure you know that. 🙂
June 14, 2013 at 1:22 amGod bless you Jane. Whatever it is that is happening, I am sure this too will come to pass. All your children know how much you love them so don't think you failed or disappointed them. Take care.
June 14, 2013 at 1:55 amMommy Jane, I can feel the sadness and frustration. Hold on and keep praying. Times like this will make you nothing but a better mom. I will include you in my prayers. For now, allow yourself to let it all out. God hears you. I'm sure He has better plans.
June 14, 2013 at 2:29 amYou cannot win them all, ika nga. Easier said than accept though sometimes. Hang in there. There's the flipside to this situation – it might be way better.
June 14, 2013 at 4:58 amI believe that God always has a plan. When there are times that all the answers are NOs, it is usually that God is telling you to wait for something better in the future. He is planning something more wonderful than what you are wishing for. Always pray and let it all out. We all know how a parent especially a mother go all out for her kids. Do not worry, I believe your kids understand you and they support you all the way. Idaan na lang natin yan sa pagkain 😀 😀 😀 hehehe 😀 😀 😀
June 14, 2013 at 7:40 amHugs, Jane!
June 14, 2013 at 8:39 amHi Mommy Jane! I am sure that your children know how much you love them and that their best interests are always in your mind and heart. You are a good Mom =)Sending you a big hug right now!!!
June 15, 2013 at 3:43 amThank you, Donna! <3 How I wish hugs & kisses are enough to comfort little girls… How I wish I could have done more.
June 16, 2013 at 12:50 amThank you Kassie! :-* I keep hoping & praying that good things will come out of this pain.
June 16, 2013 at 12:51 amThank you for comforting me, Marie! I appreciate you! :-*
June 16, 2013 at 12:52 amThank you Diane. <3 I'll take all the prayers that I can. School starts tomorrow, I hope everything will work out for the best. :-*
June 16, 2013 at 12:53 amThank you. <3 Yes, and at least now there's no way to go but up! 😉
June 16, 2013 at 12:54 amWords of wisdom coming from an impressionable young man! <3 Thank you baby bear! 😉
June 16, 2013 at 12:56 amThank you, Trsiha! :-* I needed one. <3
June 16, 2013 at 12:56 amThank you so much, Ana! Sending you a big bear hug as well. I appreciate you!! <3
June 16, 2013 at 12:57 am