As many of you know, what got me into blogging was my muse & inspiration Ms. T. Her candidness & anything-under-the-sun topic of conversation (or rather monologue) injected with wit & humor got me started on my blog more than 3 years ago. More than her bags, more than her fashion style, more than her endless shopping and finds, it was her daily musings about her family & life in general that got me addicted to her blog. Ang sarap lang kasi maki-chismis sa buhay ng may buhay diba. Especially if the person & her life is very interesting. Heck even her household helpers were interesting.

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This photo belongs to Tina.

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At first, it was just my kids who were reading my blog posts. Then little by little, other people started reading my entries too until I got a bit known & sponsors paid attention to me. Pride for my accomplishment over what was in my heart won, and for a time, I got lost somewhere. I wasn’t blogging for myself but for others. I got consumed by the biz.

I started restructuring my blog. From the WordPress platform I self-hosted. I changed my theme, my lay-out to make it more professional-looking. Yung pocket camera ko naging de– zoom lense na kahit hindi naman ako marunong kumuha! 😛 #nagpapanggap Nagka-calling card na ako!

For short, my blog became commercialized.

Try as I might, I couldn’t find myself. I read & back read my entries & I was blinded to my changes. Even my girls were telling me that my blogging style became different, it became commercialized. And for a while, I refused to believe them.

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Hello Rhea! 🙂 Thank you for holding on. I cannot promise that I can be the same Jane you once knew & loved but I will most certainly try. :-*

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People evolve. Even my muse who used to just write personal stuff before has gone on to more commercial stuff, enterprising materials & entries filled with 99% OOTDs/Makeup haul and 1% content. And so I justified myself. I assured myself that people change. Bloggers evolve.

Then lately I got to reading another blogger whose entries are so raw & candid. It’s as if she was talking to ME. Telling ME her life, her story. The first in a long time that I got hooked again by a blogger. And I remembered my muse. And I remembered the old me. And I missed that kind of blogging. The unprofessional kind where pictures were unedited, the posts short & simple, but the content got my readers engaged.

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This photo belongs to Annie.

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I remember those days, when all I used was my phone camera & I captured anything & everything that was part of my day as I shared them with you. Some readers have stayed, some have left. I thank the ones who have stayed. I’m hoping the one who left would come back. I’m hoping I’d come back. I miss the old me -back when I too was a fan & rankings and ratings didn’t matter. When I didn’t feel so entitled & self-important.

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For now I’m slowing regaining my old writing style, backtracking my steps. Recognition sometimes gets to one’s head, and I’m not exempted with what very little I got. I’ll still do commercial posts because when opportunities come knocking, you open your door. It’s crazy not to. But I’ll also try to do more personal ones reflecting the person that I am which has endeared my blog to you.

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been doing some personal blogging -posts which are ready & scheduled to be published in the days to come. Although ang hirap pala, because I need my phone ready & steady for capturing photos of whatever kaganapan is in my day. Parang hindi na ako sanay. Even the kids are surprised when I whip out my phone cam all of a sudden & take photos of snippets of my day. Hindi na rin sila sanay ng anything under the sun topic. But they are fully supportive of my “comeback”. 😛

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This photo belongs to Jane. (Yes, I dare haha!)

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This is me, and I’m here to stay. <3 Thank you for bearing with me.