March 15, 2017 – A day I will NEVER forget..
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Dear Aunties & Uncle,
As I tearfully write this, mom has just endured the most degrading & humiliating experience of her life. She was treated like a common criminal for a sin she NEVER committed. YOU did this to her. I don’t know how, after seeing her go thought this, I can ever find it in me to forgive you to be perfectly honest. Burning anger lives in the walls of my heart & all I want to do is to curse you to the ends of the earth & wish you ill.
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A Medical Doctor who always fought to save lives; an Educator who inspired & helped shape the minds of impressionable young men & women; a model citizen who obeyed the law at all times; you have just lined her up in the company of thieves, prostitutes & murderers. And for what? Your lust for money. Blood money that you don’t even deserve.
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I don’t need to tell you the hardships, mental & emotional torture she had endured with your family because you were there right from the start. You know what she has been through. From my adulterous Dad who disrespected her & brought men into his bed while we were right in the connecting bedroom. The degradation, harsh & insulting words frequently thrown at her in front of her hospital staff & colleagues, the violent tendencies she shielded us, her children from, and the snobbery of his espanola sisters who never accepted us into the Legaspi fold.
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But that’s not enough for you, is it? After having suffered & miraculously surviving a massive stroke just last year, you still found ways & means to continue torturing my mom instead of letting her live the rest of her life in peace & comfort. A life that she justly deserves after being entangled in your family.
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No, Dad’s death 3 decades ago didn’t even bring her peace. Because you & your lot are still walking the earth. And you continue to make sure that she is eternally punished for her lack of “good breeding & exotic lineage”, even though she held a degree higher than yours & made a successful life for herself -something that you never had, and will never have. Even though she made something of herself from her own blood, sweat & tears. No, she will never be good enough for you.
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30 years. We never heard from you for 30 years since Dad passed away in 1986. It was only last year that you surfaced from years of no communication whatsoever for settlement. The family corporation which you were brought into ONLY BY NAME in order to fill the 2 out of 5 remaining incorporators, you were already justly compensated. All the financial losses brought about by the losing business, you had no hand in keeping alive through the years that you remained silent. Not a single centavo did you contribute to keep the business alive & kicking while my mom did everything necessary & in her power to keep it floating. And now after so many years, you awaken like a sleeping dragon with a vengeance so full & fierce that you seek to destroy us by suing us for perjury -the only case you & your equally malicious & money-grubbing lawyer can come up with. Lying under oath for Board Meetings we in fact, actually held over the years as the majority stockholders of the family corporation.
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Aunties & Uncle, you have also proven that Justice is NOT blind when you so conveniently manipulated it to your side by worldly means & gains. And now we have to pay for it because we stood our moral grounds, thinking good & justice will always prevail. Alas, we were wrong, so very wrong. Dirty money will always come into play & the bad will always rule over the good in this world.
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The Sunday in church before all hell broke loose (in our lives at least) -March 12, God was speaking to me through our guest pastor, Vince Burke, and sending me an important message. I didn’t think of it as being directed towards me at the time, but as soon as things & days progressed and your plan came into play, I understood the meaning sent across clear as day. It was what held me through under duress. That just as Jesus Christ had forgiven my sins, like it or not, I TOO MUST forgive my trespassers. You.
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I cried a river when our Pastor showed this video clip of CORRIE TEN BOOM, feeling & commiserating for the missionary & what she had to go through. Feeling & commiserating for Christ Jesus who was punished heavily for sins he did not even commit. I didn’t know at the time that God was already speaking to my heart & preparing me for what was coming just 2 days after.
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Indeed, if God was able to forgive his adversaries from inflicting such pain, torture & humiliation, a million times more that what we endured today, who are we to cry out & ask for deliverance? What we went through is but a minuscule fraction of what God had to suffer.
And so, with a clear conscience & a light heart, and even though you do not seek it, I choose to forgive you. Romans 12: 19 – Revenge is mine, says the Lord, but I will not even pray to MY Heavenly Father to smite you. Because I have so much, and you have nothing. I’ve been blessed a hundred fold, something which you have been denied. So no, I will not ask for a life more sorry & pathetic than what you are already living now. That is punishment enough.
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Prayer to Forgive
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While your children can’t stand you & have left you as soon as they were able to, I have the love & devotion of my family -plus we’re living the good life, a great life. So yes, you have every right to be jealous. To want my life, our life. It’s understandable.
So dear Aunties & Uncle, rest in peace knowing that I have forgiven you. It may take a while for me to forget -the image of my mom looking beaten, forsaken & forlorn holding a poster with her name has been ingrained in my memory, but it is something I will work on. I have to in order to move on.
I wish you a life of love, peace, and contentment. Accept Jesus Christ into your life while there’s still time & live the remaining days of your life in service to Him. Know God, know peace. No God, no peace.
I pray that it is not too late for you Auntie.
Your niece, Jane
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My question & answer portion at the presinto..
?? – Ma’am birthday?
?? – Feb 20 ho.
?? – Height?
?? – 5’4″ ho.
?? – Weight?
?? – Aba masyado na ho yatang personal yang tanong na yan? Ikulong nyo nalang ako! ;))
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To my dear readers, especially my Instagram followers who have condoled with me & sent me heart-warming messages. To those who prayed with me & for me, THANK YOU. Truly & sincerely, my heart is no longer heavy because of your intercession. God has heard my cries & he has lifted my pain & burden.
Romans 8:28 – And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
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On a lighter note, just because we all need a laugh after this heavy spiel..
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At the Bail Bonds place. A man tearfully tells the officer in charge his money is not enough for his bail. The amount for his particular offense is 3.5k (3k for bail & 500 for court fee) & he only has 3k plus some change for pamasahe back home to Bulacan. For 30 minutes he & the officer go back & forth..
?? : Balik ka nalang bukas kulang yan hindi namin matatanggap.
?: Sir sa Bulacan pa ho ako nakatira, wala na ako pang-pamasahe bukas maawa kayo.
I wanted to help him but I had to know the crime he was in for first. Baka naman rapist, omamamatay tao, eh pabayaan ko na syang mabulok. So syempre usi muna ako bago give..
??: Kuya, ano ho ba ang kaso nyo?
?: Reckless impudence ho ma’am. May nabangga ako pero gasgas lang naman. Maliit lang hindi gaanong kalakihan.
??: O eto kuya ang 500 para hindi ka na babalik bukas. Good luck nalang sa kaso mo.
?: Maraming salamat ma’am. Baka ho kailangan nyo ng driver kunin nyo nalang ako wala na akong trabaho.
??: Kuya. Nakabangga ka nga ng kotse diba. Reckless ka nga daw, eh bakit naman kita kukuning driver? Di sumakit pa ang ulo ko at magkasama na naman tayo dito sa susunod mong bunggo!
Kaloka si Koya. Now, back to a serious note, please continue to pray for us, and for enlightenment for all the people concerned. #justiceforjane 😉
Friends, if you are in a similar situation- or if you think that you are fighting a battle you can’t win, never lose hope. Deuteronomy 31:6 – “Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the LORD your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” Tiwala lang, sagot tayo ni Lord. 😉
60 Comments
I dont like the mugshots talaga! mej parang feeling binuhusan ng malamig na tubig ako..lalo na kay mother…huhuhuhu
March 23, 2017 at 8:21 amHay Jo.. only by God’s grace talaga. <3
March 23, 2017 at 8:53 amAs I was reading this, umpisa palang I was shaking out of anger because I can feel your anger having your mom undergo a mugshot. Juskopo naman! Respeto nalang. Plus, hindi naman karumaldumal ang ginawa ni mommy! Wala ngang kasalanan e. Oh my! Napakawalang kwenta ng mga yan! Paano nila naaatim yan? You don’t deserve this! Lalo na si mommy. At her age di ba? Bakit nila kailangan iparanas ang mga yan? I salute you for forgiving them. Rest assured that they will get what they truly deserve. Hindi man dito pero sa impyernong dapat nilang kalagyan! Super affected talaga ako. I cannot take the pain of a daughter to see her mom having the mugshot. Di ko pa mom yan ha? What more ikaw, di ba? There are so many blessings in your life. Bawing bawi ka naman dun. The reason why I really like and love you is that, it is very easy for you to help. Kaya di ko alam paano nagagawa ng mga uncles and aunties mo yan sa inyo. I will pray for you specially for mommy.
March 23, 2017 at 8:24 amThank you Eula. I need all the prayers I can get. My heart wants to forgive but my minds keeps rehashing the pictures. Napakahirap na struggle. I’m sure all daughters can relate. I appreciate your support. Praying for the best outcome.
March 23, 2017 at 8:34 amI don’t wanna read this and see your mugshot again. it breaks my heart ?. God bless your beautiful heart Mother Jane. Hugs and prayers for the family. It will all get better soon.
March 23, 2017 at 8:55 amThank you Erika. :-*
March 23, 2017 at 8:59 amPraying for you dear Jane. Naiiyak ako especially kay mother. 🙁 Ang sarap manugod at manabunot! Hugs!
March 23, 2017 at 9:26 amThank you Tara. Prayer is the best weapon, I need all that you can give. Appreciate you! :-*
March 23, 2017 at 10:45 amHugs Jane. Sending you all the positive vibes so that this tough time can be hurdled with all the glamour and class you possess. Love to you and your family from across the ocean.
March 23, 2017 at 9:38 amThank you Maria for always being there in good times & bad. I’m really blessed. :-*
March 23, 2017 at 10:45 ambig hugs for you ms.jane and for mader. mwah!!!
March 23, 2017 at 9:53 amThank you Rei ha!! :-* Mwah!
March 23, 2017 at 10:46 amMy heart is bleeding for you all the more upon knowing that your mom was also dragged into this. I believe the Lord will honor your heart and you will come out victorious, more blessed, wiser and just a better version of your already good self. Vengeance is not ours, it’s the Lord- a blessed assurance for His children.
Mommy Jane, said a prayer for discernment, wisdom, grace and fortitude as this saga continues. Our Lord will deliver you. Please send my hugs to mommy. She’s one tough woman and I admire her so much as much as I admire you.
God bless.
March 23, 2017 at 11:03 amAmen. Thank you so much Candy. I am always in need & appreciative of prayers. It is one thing I can never have enough of. Thank you for always including us in your prayers. <3
March 23, 2017 at 11:15 amJane lots of virtual hugs and sending my prayers over to you – kaya mo yan! Like you said Sagot tayo ni Lord! Thank you for continuously sharing pieces of you life with us. Be it the good, bad or the ugly (stories) you are cared for by others who may not be blood relatives or real life friends but genuinely see the good in you, like me. Keep your spirits up – you have your happy family and supportive readers with you. 🙂
March 23, 2017 at 11:05 amThank you so much. It is the good in so many other people that makes me still have faith in humanity. Iilan lang ang puvsakal, compared to the goodness I see in so many people, including you. Thank you for caring. :-*
March 23, 2017 at 11:16 amHi Jane,
I am quite surprise by your situation. My mom blessed her departed soul also had a hard life when she got married to my dad’s family imagine with 9 aunties bullying her. It was her Christian faith and steadfast belief and love for Jesus that help her thru her ordeal. I just want to share with you this quote form Robert H. Schuller “Tough times never last,but tough people do”. Take Care and God Bless.
Philip
March 23, 2017 at 11:30 amThank you for this quote Philip. It certainly helps in times of doubt & uncertainty. It’s really hard to co-exist with in laws and I pray that when the time comes for my children to have families of their own, they will love the spouses of their siblings as their own. Para lahat happy. 🙂
March 23, 2017 at 11:38 am“When money talks, People changes” I respect you Jane for holding on your ground no matter how painful, for believing in good over bad even if you have to pay the price. Cheers I do believe Karma will get them at the end.
March 23, 2017 at 3:13 pmThank you Gezel I fully agree with you. Amen. 🙂
March 23, 2017 at 3:42 pmMs. Jane, I was tearing up when I was reading this. I can’t even bear to look at your photos especially your mom 🙁 My heart can’t. Sending your family the biggest and warmest hugs of all!
March 23, 2017 at 4:27 pmThank you so much Anna for your compassion. Sometimes non-family members give more love & care, that’s a sad fact.
March 23, 2017 at 4:29 pmMommy Jane I ADMIRE you moreeeee than ever for this sharing a piece or I’d rather think “a bite” na lang to this ugly portion of your beautiful and blessed life you have now ha? You are really so BRAVE and full of HUMILITY in facing all of this. I will pray for you, mommy and the whole family to get through this with flying colors pa in the days to come. Hold on tight! God will bless you more!
March 23, 2017 at 5:44 pmThank you Ai-lyn. :-* I understand & I accept that I can’t possibly receive just the good & not the bad. Life is fair. I just have to grin & bear it. Thankful for all the outpouring of love & support.
March 23, 2017 at 6:57 pmI feel you! I can’t find the proper words at this time but I know it really sucks big time. They are supposed to be family. 🙁 I saved the prayer…thanks for posting. Hugs!!!
March 23, 2017 at 7:57 pmThank you for always rooting for me Trisha. :-*
March 23, 2017 at 8:02 pmHugs and prayers…this too shall pass. “The Lord is my shepherd, there is nothing I shall want”. Please hang in there, and keep the faith!
March 23, 2017 at 10:39 pmI will, thank yoi for the boost, Marya. Mwah! :-*
March 24, 2017 at 6:29 amHi Ms. Jane! I’ve been reading your blog for so many years now and this is my first time to leave a comment. I admire you for being a great wife, mom, and daughter. This post broke my heart to pieces. I’m praying for you, your mom, and your family. God is always faithful and will never leave us on our own. You are blessed 🙂
March 24, 2017 at 8:20 amThank you so much for rallying for us. I really appreciate all the positive comments & prayers, it helps ease the pain. :-*
March 24, 2017 at 11:00 amNow i know the story. Ang galing lang ng mga impak-tita’s at impak-tito mo mommy jane. Napaka dramatic ng performance nila pwede sila sa script writing contest for sure winner na sila.
March 24, 2017 at 10:28 amWait na lang sila ng kanilang karma malapit na nasa pintuan na nila. Si god naman ang direktor kaya watch ka na lang mommy jane.
I admire your mom’s strength and character. Ang bait ni mudra ha. Karapat dapat siyang tawaging #darnanay.naalala ko tuloy ang kantang #wildflower sa kaniya.
Hahaha thank you for making me smile. I like that “darnanay” I will call her that from now on. 🙂 Yes, she has been through so much but I know she will get her reward not in this lifetime, but in heaven kung saan may forever. Thank you for always cheering me on Wheng. <3
March 24, 2017 at 11:02 amibang usapan talaga pag pera pera sa pamilya. mga ganid sila. naiinis ako na may mga taong tulad nila na walang konsensya at kayang makiharap sa inyo na parang wala lang.
di bale miss jane, maraming nag mamahal sa inyo. ipagdasal ko na mabilis nyo po itong malampasan. tama, same here, i can forgive, but i can’t forget (easily).
may the good Lord bless you more and your family a thousand folds. keep smiling… dust it off (kahit alam kong mahirap)..this too shall pass!
March 24, 2017 at 11:12 amThank you. :-* Sa suporta at panalangin nalang na binibigay ninyong lahat sa amin, super winner na!
March 24, 2017 at 1:16 pmpraying for you jane and your mom, this too shall pass…
March 24, 2017 at 3:34 pmAmen. Thank you Elna :-*
March 24, 2017 at 4:01 pmHi mam Jane, nagkaroon po ba kayo ng buying-out ng shares? Why are they still claiming? I thought in one picture,meron nakalagay na parang settlement “paid” as you highlighted in the pic.
March 24, 2017 at 4:20 pmYes bam. As clear as day. They encashed it already. Sa kanila hindi malinaw, ubos na siguro lol.
March 24, 2017 at 7:08 pmHugs and lots of prayers for you and your family, Mommy Jane. I pray you stay strong together, and God-willing, that you are spared from any more pain.
March 24, 2017 at 5:39 pmThank you so much. :-*
March 24, 2017 at 7:09 pmMy heart bleeds for your mother.She does not deserve such indignities.Money is the root of all evil.Sad to say,it’s not going to stop until they bleed you dry.Hire the best lawyer you can afford.Go kick some geriatric ASS!!!
March 24, 2017 at 8:06 pmThank you Zara for that boost of positive energy. 🙂 Luckily for me, God is more powerful than blood-sucking vampires.
March 24, 2017 at 10:24 pmSpeechless Ms.Jane… Actually crying right now. Especially Mom’s mugshot…My prayers are with you and family. Hugs and kisses 🙂
March 25, 2017 at 6:57 pmThank you She. May kapalit lahat ng pagdudusa nya. Maybe not in this lifetime but for sure when she is in Heaven. Thank you for the love & concern. <3
March 25, 2017 at 9:06 pmAw Ms. Jane ? Grabe naman pati ba naman si Mommy at her age ginawan pa nila ng ganyan… Sobra as in sibra talaga. We’ll be praying for you and your family and karma will hit your aunt & uncle so bad.
March 25, 2017 at 8:36 pmHay naku Let sinabi mo pa. @_@ Sadness everdeen talaga.
March 25, 2017 at 9:05 pmHi Jane. I’ve been a silent follower of your blog but I thought I should let you know that my heart went out to you after reading this. Praying with you.
Those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing. -Psalm 34:10
March 27, 2017 at 11:10 amThank you so much Didi I really appreciate your prayers. :-*
March 27, 2017 at 1:03 pmOhhemmgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee I didn’t know kasama si Mama (mama with espanol accent)! Ohhhhh hugs to you! I know you’re hurting so much because it’s not only you, kasama pala siya. But time and again, you have proved to us that you have a big heart. Congratulations for choosing to forgive.
March 27, 2017 at 2:46 pmYesterday the sermon was about forgiveness again Meding. Series sya habggang April. God is “tenderizing” my heart hehe binubugbog sa pangaral. Micro-management for my sungay lol.
March 27, 2017 at 2:50 pmIt’s hard to be mabait in a situation like yours. Madaming options, like, paabangan sa kanto (at alam mo na). LOL. But you chose to forgive and that is so admirable. See you soon? I wanna hug you in person.
BTW I think your mugshot is the most beautiful mugshot I’ve seen. No bola.
March 28, 2017 at 12:52 pmhahahahaha gusto ko ngang gawin profile pic eh meding kaso sabi ng mga kids sobra daw akong eskandalosa! ;)) Thank you, and yes I NEED that hug please.
March 28, 2017 at 2:50 pmMs. Jane, sila ho bah yung family na napuntahan nyo sa London? I’m so sorry for what you are experiencing right now. It hurts so much especially that it’s between families talaga… I know you will rise above it all and the truth will set you free.. of course in favor sa inyo…
March 27, 2017 at 5:36 pmoh no no donna. half brother nila yung binisita namin sa london & he’s suoer nice. My one & only favorite.
March 28, 2017 at 12:04 pmyour post made me cry, especially seeing your mom’s picture. amazed at how God’s grace allowed you to forgive someone that cruel. praying for your family…
March 28, 2017 at 2:36 pmThank you so much Minnie. Prayers help so much. :-*
March 28, 2017 at 2:52 pmOh my, Jane! I feel your pain and I’m sorry you and your mom had to go through this ordeal. Good will always prevail over evil, just have faith! I wish I could just whisk you and your mom and family back to our resort and give you happy memories. Hugs from me!
March 29, 2017 at 11:34 amThank you so much for the compassion Janet. But truly, God never sleeps. And yes, it’s summer already & your lovely resort beckons! I miss! <3
March 29, 2017 at 2:44 pmJane, I remember our parish priest once said in homily that in this life, there are three persons so close to God that if you offend them, it is God you offended. they are the a. poor/weak b. children and c. widows (your mom)
God is good and He is just. you just wait and see.
praying with you.
April 4, 2017 at 5:21 amAmen. My heart is heavy once again because we will meet them tomorrow for the arraignment. I am asking God to condition my heart so that His grace will reign over impure thoughts & dark, overwhelming feelings. Pls pls say a little prayer for us to arm us with strength, courage & wisdom, esp for the presiding judge that her decision will not be clouded by the enemy.
April 4, 2017 at 9:52 am